What Would Lindsay Do?
This week, I went to bed with a slight pain in my wrist. I had only done what I do everyday... written orders and typed on the computer at work and then doodled when I woke up and doodled when I got home. That's what I do... everyday. And then, in the middle of the night... the pain grew and grew and grew. So, at 4am when I could no longer stand it, I called the nurse line and made an appointment with a doctor for 11am. At 5am, i woke the hubs and told him that I need to get to ER. I think I have broken my wrist. Mind you, he had just had a small surgery the day before and was not in tiptop shape himself. But I couldn't hold a pen, let alone, a steering wheel!!!
He obliged, as sweetly as he always does... I think he saw the pain in my face and knew that I wasn't kidding. A half hour and one taco bell crunchwrap later ( for the driver ) we were at the ER - with NO WAIT LINE!!! Doctor came right in and I was ready for the X-Ray. Which never came!!! Instead after asking me a few doctorly questions, he pushed down on the flat back side of my wrist. You know, the fleshy part. I screamed and stood up and then dropped to the ground in pain. He smiled. Kept it up for a moment in a few different ways and then looked at me and said
CARPAL TUNNEL!!!!
I felt like he had just given me a death sentance....
IN MY RIGHT HAND!
what are you kidding?
do you know who i am?
do you know what i do?
do you know how far i have come this year to get to this place?
I felt like my life was over.
My hubs just looked at me and shook his head.
He knew. He really got it.
I have not been seen without a pen in my hand for weeks, months. An recently, I am constructing two or three pieces a day. I have personal deadlines and work deadlines and I LOVE a good deadline. Being a listmaker... if you give me a task and tell me it needs to be done in 3 minutes, by God... it will be.
So, now what?
He said, no use for 2 weeks -
wear that God Awful splint and maybe it the pain goes away,
i can control it with a splint every now and then
or
SURGERY!!!!!!!!
what, are you kidding me?
what would you do if someone said you couldn't do what you love to do anymore? I have no clue what to do for 2 weeks. Might as well throw me in jail.
but instead...
a calm has come over me.
I have sat. I have read, I have done some one handed cleaning and some supervising of cleaning, I left the house during the day with my hubs to attend a car show ( i never go out in the day these days... too many deadlines! ), I watched a movie with NOTHING in my hand and today.... I think a hammock and a good book is in store for me.
if I have learned something from this... it is above here.
Let yourself rest.
I am still going a bit nuts, but i get it.
and in case you need to know...
YES
i did hen pick this post with ONE HAND!
happy sunday...
be a good member of the human race.